My weakness.

I love male arms. And this is my weakness. Male arms is the most magnificent "weapon" which was created in universe. There is no stronger weapon than these two upper limbs.

I can just watch during the hours how man opens the door, how he types something very fast, how he gesticulates, how his palm becomes hard, how he fixes the car or does push ups.

Jesus...

Just imagine, just think how much power these wrists and protruding veins have, how much strength...

This power over you...These careful movements when he ruffles your hair and you are already randy because of this. You even don`t need anything else.

Some people say if woman likes to look at man when he is eating, if she likes to look at his hands at this moment, it means everything will be good in their sex.

So, note:

Women with hungry eyes don`t just look at the male arms, no. They already imagine how these arms take all cloths off them and touch everywhere with hot passion.

Pure lust. Pure as a tear baby.

I don`t say that male legs aren`t sexy or male bum doesn`t look hot in tight jeans. All this is also great.

But arms...Arms=space. Drug. Lump in throat. Weak knees and mad enamored eyes.

And the best thing is that man can do magic with woman by his hands. Two fingers inside you- and you are a helpless girl with dull eyes, and you don`t understand anything and want more and more...

Oh my god.

Just think how great it is.

Just imagine.

Four happy women.

Olga looked at old pictures in social network and couldn`t believe that it`s she on them. How many years ago she studied in college and lived in student`s camping? Ten or even twelve...Long time ago. On this picture she is sitting at the table and eating a cheap soup from package. Being a student she couldn`t buy meat and fish every day. Sometimes Olga and other girls bought groceries for common money. They found different ways to earn it: worked at cinema, as waitresses at the restaurants, in library...But study was expensive and life in big city was expensive also, so girls always nedeed money. Olga looked at second picture: she had red strands of hair in that time. Of course now she doesn`t dye it anymore.

Maybe the real happiness was in that time? Nobody envied each other, everybody was equal. All students nedeed money and ate a cheap food.

Olga opened the virtual album with photos of her old friend Julia. That girl always was the most beautiful girl in college. All guys wanted to date her and she knew it. Of course Julia found a rich man after graduation. He gave her well-of life, now Julia is living in a very big and nice house, has a rest on Maldives and in Italy, wearing expensive dresses and has a lot of jewerly. Olga was sure: Julia even doesn`t remember that cheap soup and poor student`s life in college. Olga felt a small anger. It is not fair: Julia got everything and Olga got a life in small apartment with two rooms, husband who couldn`t earn big money and two kids who always tore the clothes and demanded a lot of food. Olga was sure that Julia`s son eats best fruits, best Swiss and Belgian chocolate, maybe even a caviar. And Olga`s children eat simple food and wear cheap clothes.

Phone call returned Olga in reality. It was an educator from kindergarden. Olga`s son got sick and had a high temperature. Taking small daughter out of bed Olga ran for son thinking how much money she has to pay for medicine. And she felt very unhappy.

***

Of course, life in camping was absolutely different than life now. Julia looked at old pictures in social network where she and other girls ate a cheap soup from package. She remembered that poor but cheerful time, and that soup and different ways to earn money. Suddenly Julia understood that she would eat that soup right now and it would be delicious. And cheap canned goods, and cheap sausages. That food was so simple but so tasty.

Julia remembered the old cafe where she went with Olga after lections. They ate mushed potatoes with lumps and drank a cheap coffee there. Nowadays Julia`s husband won`t let her visit the same place. Nowadays Julia eats only expensive meals.

Julia looked at picture where Natasha has been photographed. That girl was a real nerd. She came to Moscow from small town in Siberia and had a goal to build a great career. While other girls had fun after lections, Natasha went to the library and studied, studied, studied...And it was not in vain. She graduated from college with the best kind of diploma. And Natasha`s career is also awesome: she opened her own financial agency. Julia almost doesn`t communicate with Natasha now because she is working all day, all night. Natasha is an example of independent and strong woman. And what about Julia? She depends on her husband, he doesn`t want her to work but she doesn`t do anything at home too. Julia`s family has a housekeeper, a cooker, a nurse and own teacher for son. Julia even shouldn`t raise her own son because other people do it! Everything what is material can be bought by Julia`s husband. She can have anything she wishes. But it is not a happiness...Julia suffers from some implementation, she feels that she is just an annex to her successful husband. Natasha is smart, successful woman, she is happy. And Julia...Julia is a nobody.

Sitting in her huge and rich house, Julia felt very unhappy.

***

Natasha drove her car and thought about important meeting with colleagues. Her head has been filled with thoughts and she noticed that she is driving past the college at the last moment. Everything is different here but also so familiar. Natasha remembers the years of studying, remembers how girls called her "nerd", how she could learn some subject during all night...No, she doesn`t miss all this. It was just a step to better life that Natasha has nowadays. And she is glad that she studied a lot. All this was for career, for chance to live in the capital and never go back to her native small town. Natasha is independent, she has her own agency, she earns her own money. What can be better?

Of course, Natasha was lying to herself. She dreamed about real love. She wanted to meet a man who will adore her, who will write poems to her, who will be with her untill the end. Natasha believed in such kind of love because her classmate Maria has it. She met Victor in college and it was the love from first sight. Victor and Maria were a perfect couple and they are still together. They married and look very happy from pictures in social network. They look at each other with tenderness and passion in eyes. Maria always can ask Victor about help and he will help her because he loves her. Natasha has to do everything herself and sometimes it is very hard and annoying. Last time she is thinking only about strong male shoulder on which she could put her head and forget about independence for a while.

Successful and independent but lonely Natasha understood that she is very unhappy...

***

Maria cried in the toilet squeezing the test for pregnancy which has appeared negative again. Third attempt- and it is vain again! Maria didn`t care of anything, she wanted only one: a baby, her own baby, small and warm, boy or girl or maybe even twins. Every day Maria thought how she will raise her kid, how he or she will look and how they will spend time together.

But all was bad...Maria and Victor visited doctors, made analyses and nobody could explain why they cannot conceive a baby. If they had so big money as Julia has, they could make a vitro fertilisation but they don`t have this money. Of course Maria can lend a needed sum from Julia but it will be a proof that she and Victor are not a Perfect Family without any problems how all their friends think.

And, of course, the happiest person is Olga. Sge has two babies, TWO! And Maria doesn`t have even one.

Sitting in the toilet with wet face and useless paper strip Maria felt that she is the unhappiest person in the world.

Weak men and strong women.

Attention!!! There is a very hard time for men nowadays!

If in the past he was a getter, a MAN with steel balls, now we are all equal. Women wear jeans "boyfriend", drive trucks, earn big money, control all life in the house, raise kids without any help and train muscles in gym. Earlier women were waiting for men from the wars, from the army, now we are waiting for them from psychologist`s office and from the beauty saloon. Really, notice: men try to look sweet, well-groomed (TOO well-groomed), they can admire their reflection in the mirror longer than women do it!

I cannot imagine a woman who left her kids. How many women who left their kids do you know? I don`t know any. Even if she doesn`t have a job, money, elementary support and any enlightenment in life- she will never leave the family. And what about men? Let me show you statistics of single mothers in the world.

Germany- 80%.
Netherlands- 70%.
Ireland- 60%.
Russia- 80%.
USA- 80%.
Australia- 60%.
Great Britain- 75%.
France- 80%.
Spain- 60%.

Enough?..

Nowadays men feel stressed and down because of everything. I am not exaggerating. My grandfather worked in police. He was an investigator in the criminal department. He went to the identification of corpses, he pursued the gang where each member had several guns, he was forced to present the terrible news of the death of people to their relatives a huge amount of time. Also there was a life in Soviet Union. Maybe you don`t understand what was that, I can explain. Prison. Real prison. People lived in closed country and couldn`t do anything wrong without serious punishment. They couldn`t tell what they wanted, they couldn`t buy what they wanted. And my grandfather worked on the nervous job all his life. And do you know what? He never felt so stressed that to leave the family and take time-out for "thinking". Because he understood: he is a man. If he took a responsbility for other people who need him it means he must be strong for them. Not to cry how this job is hard but to show that family can be protected by him. And he never ever ever ever gave up.

What about nowadays? Every second man becomes crazy of his "difficult" life. He is tired, he has a middle age crisis but you, woman, should do everything yourself. I mean: try to understand what is happening, try to fix all thoughts inside your head, try to cope with all difficulties without him because man is depressed. He is tired. And never mind that he doesn`t work at the mine where the life-threatening awaits him at every turn. Never mind that he doesn`t live in a box under the bridge. Never mind that all his family is healthy and happy- he is tired. He needs tme for understand everything. What "everything"? To find a harmony? To find Zen?..

My best friend is a very smart and interesting man. We can talk about anything: astronomy, history, policy, economy etc. Almost three weeks ago he became a dad. His daughter is very nice and beautiful and very quiet what is very important for young parents. I was sure he wil be happy. Two days ago I sent him a message with question "How are you? Do you like your new role?" Answer was this: "I am depressed. I want to commit suicide. I didn`t expect this life. I can`t live so anymore."

WTF?..

He has a nice apartment (not for renting but his own). He has a stable job with good salary by Russian standarts. He has a car, a wife who cooks for him three times per day even after maternity hospital. He has a pretty daughter who even doesn`t cry at the night and he shouldn`t wash her, feed her because his wife does everything. And he wants to commit suicide... Is it a postpartum depression? But he is a man. He didn`t vomit during the pregnancy, he didn`t get fat on fifteen pounds, his chest didn`t lose the form because of feeding baby, he didn`t feel a terrible pain giving a child birth. And he has a depression...Stop this weird planet, please!..

Sometimes I think: if the real war will be soon, who will protect countries, families? When I watch movies about World War I, World War II, about wars in past which were very long time ago, when I read historical books about heroes in past, I see: men were stronger. They were hardy. They really had STEEL BALLS haha :) I cannot imagine Alexander the Great in depression. I cannot imagine Richard the Lionheart who gave up, left everyone that to "think" and "restart". I cannot imagine any man in past who folded arms and understood that "he is tired". Life was more difficult in past but men were strong. Now women are stronger. Really. Look at the world and you will see this.

Gender equality is good in salaries, in respect, in household duties. But not in everything. I was born a female, I don`t have balls. I don`t want to control all life when man will lay in bed with depression. I want to feel protected from problems. I want to see a real man near me who is like a stone wall. Who can just hug me and I will understand: all will be good. I am not sure it is possible nowadays, if to be honest. Now women should hug men and protect them from problems. Fuck feminism!

Dear men, we understand that sometimes you feel down. We understand that life is not easy (nobody promised it will be). And yes, I agree, sometimes you also want to cry and feel a self-pity (it`s normal). But this is life. If you are healthy, if your family is healthy, if you don`t save lives in hospital where patient can die in your arms, if you don`t have to hide from bombing, if you have people who are ready to support you- all is ok. Only those people survive in this world who are strong. Woman will survive in any situation. And do you know who commit suicide more often? Men do it four times more than women. Four times more...

I know what many of you will think now. That this is women`s fault. Haha of course it is! Woman cleanes a house, cooks a dinner, raises kids, has a lot of female problems- and sure, this is her fault that man is a weak! Do you hear how funny and ridiculuos it sounds?..

One day men will open their eyes and won`t see support from women, love from women, respect from women. We support, love and respect strong men. Men who are not afraid of problems. And if he chooses to be weak and driveller- ok, let him do it. But don`t regret then that nobody needs you. Because when woman gets a penis (I mean a mental penis, not real) she doesn`t need a man anymore. That`s very sad but gender equality did a very wrong job.